i know

I know this isn't the most interesting blog in the world, and I don't keep it up to date at all. Eventually it'll become a proper blog but for now I really don't have the time or the mind to keep up with it. Right now it's just a random smattering of thoughts, me thinking to myself, as I try to keep sane. I don't like feeling invisible, or like a pawn, and I'm feeling both to the extreme right now. I'm so thankful for the jobs I have right now but I'm also very dissatisfied with it all. And my whatever-you-want-to-call-him is also making me feel rather extremely invisible--the one person who is never supposed to make me feel this way. Life is a fog and I just want to sleep until the sun burns it off.